c-fest
Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2003 - 11:40 pm

random thought: "i hope people aren't offended by the word cunt, i throw it around like chocolate" -pud


so tomorrow will be my first real gym class. monday we really did nothing - i needed to take the orientation of the gym... a necessary process in order to use the facility. anyway, i learned how to use almost all the strength training machines... i'm just a little iffy on the other work out machines (the ones upstairs) like the eliptical and bikes and tredmills and stuff. oh well, anyway, i'm planning on staying for the whole class time and then perhaps a little afterwards if i dont feel too tired. we'll see. i DO have to get back here in enough time to shower and change and meet amy for lunch at the hub at 12:30. and maybe it's just because i haven't actually worked out yet, but i think i may actually utilize the gym facilities. perhaps i will become buff by the end of the school year. i thought i would be way more intimidated walking into the gym, but really it wasn't too bad. maybe that's just because it was early in the morning, but there weren't too many people there and i think i could possibly get a good workout going. haha. i say this now.

i have other duties to perform tomorrow as well. i can't go into details here. but i can't forget to do them! so i want to make sure i remember by writing this non-descript paragraph that - to anyone else - seems as though i'm trying to keep a secret. maybe i am. wouldn't you like to know.

alas, a funny event occurred today. i was working, as i always do on tuesday afternoons, in the mail room. my co-worker, kurt, a fellow english major (and also a creative writing and film studies minor) was asking me about english requirements. turns out he needs to take a pre-1800 class next semester... well, so do i! so i was going through the choices with him and i pointed out the one i will be taking... 10:30 tuesday and thursday. then i pointed out the only other 2 offered - one at 8:30 AM! which counts that one out. the other one is taught by... ummm... let's call the professor Butch. "you dont want to take that class," i say, "Butch is a CUNT." well... my pseudo-boss, really just co-worker, but 35 yrs old gasps in horror as i throw the word "cunt" around the mail room. so then she exclaims that people of her generation do not like that word. well, another employee, only a year older than her says, "i use that word all the time! 'cunt' is a good word!" haha - by this time she is cringing and holding her ears and yelling at all of us. we proceed to have a "cunt-fest" and throw the word around a few dozen times. then, just when she thinks it's safe, we yell out words that RHYME with 'cunt.' like front, punt, shunt... every time, she started to cringe and cover her ears, but then just glared at us instead. haha. it was good times. sometimes you just need to let out aggression and 'cunt' is just the word to let you do that. as in the vagina monologues - embrace the cunt. sound it out. use it. haha.

anyway, i wish there were more to do tonight. i feel bored and alone. but oh well. i suppose i could just sleep instead. i do have the day off tomorrow. i have some homework to do, but nothing to demanding. nothing i can't whip out in an hour or so. sometimes i wish school would go a little quicker... but at the same time, i want it to never end. i know i have the good life right now. 10 years down the road, i'll look back on this year and say "what i wouldn't give to be able to have it like that again... have everything handed to me on a silver platter... be able to live in a worry-free community with virtually no money and survive... live with my best friends, eat with my best friends, party with my best friends - because they're no more than a 15 minute walk from me. how easy i had it. how i wish i could have everyone so close to me again"