so thursday night cube tells me that he wishes he could have had experience dating and drinking before we met to open him up more so our first few months wouldn't have been so awkward. i was pretty shocked by this. our first year was so special to me because we took the time to really get to know each other and we really made strides in opening each other up and being able to communicate. so i was thinking he was trying to take all that away from me. then he went off on a tangent about fucking twins. i wont go there.

anyway, so there was a whole misunderstanding here between us because i thought he was saying that he wished he could go back and change it. when apparently he was just reflecting and saying "i wonder what it would have been like if i had done that."

well, thursday night i got so pissed at him that i just left the computer. then on friday he was going home for the weekend. so during the day we didn't get to talk and then by the time i was back, he was on his way home. by the time he got back that night, i was tired... i had been upset all day and really didn't feel like talking. so i went to bed after talking for only half an hour. finally today we talked things out.

i'm still kind of confused as to what happened. he has this "problem" that i am well aware of. i dont know what to call it. but basically he thinks out loud. whatever crosses his mind at any given moment is voiced. this normally isn't a problem as it helps us to be more open with each other. it also provides our friends with humorous commentary on our surroundings. however, on rare occassions such as this... something really confusing comes out and he either doesn't word it properly, or i dont understand properly and we fight about it.

needless-to-say, this was a bad weekend for me. i have to write some of my thesis due tuesday and i have a job interview on thursday. this is a hectic week... and this just made it worse. not to mention that this weekend is full of fun for my other roommates - who keep trying to invite me along, which is great, but unwelcome this weekend - i just want to be left pretty much alone. altho i didn't mind chit-chatting with jane today... we went to george's for dinner. it was a nice evening out. but i'm glad that all this is resolved now. i hate fighting. i think that's the longest we've been in a fight. or misunderstanding... or whatever. but this all makes up for it:

me: i want a hug
cube: and i want to give em away like the free samples in front of a chinese restaurant at the mall
cube: *huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug*

well, i should really go and either do some homework or go to sleep... i get an extra hour today! sweet.