poy - the other side
Tuesday, Nov. 04, 2003 - 10:45 pm

random thought: poy


Do you believe in ghosts, spirits or angels? Why or why not? Or what about psychics and mediums and their capabilities to communicate with the dead? Share your experiences.

i do believe in ghosts, spirits and angels. i always feel like i'm surrounded by them. back in 1992, when my life was flipped upside down, i began to really think that my dead relatives were around me all the time. especially my grandfather. he died in the beginning of the year, and i remember that i was upset at the time, but then months later, after i was over crying all the time and had accepted his passing, i would wake up in the middle of the night crying hysterically because i felt his presence. and sometimes when i was lonely, i would just talk to him, or when i was scared, i would ask him to stay close and protect me. it was like an invisible friend, only better.

when i got a little older and a classmate of mine died, colby manning, i again felt like i could feel him when he was around me. sometimes i would stare at myself in the mirror and think i really could see through it to him staring back at me like in one of those two way mirror rooms the cops have. i would talk to him when i was lonely too. i would appologize for not being a better friend to him, or for not honoring him in some way.

when jay died, i went through the same thing all over again. as soon as i found out, i felt like, "what if he's watching me," or soemthing like that. when i lay down in bed before i go to sleep, i'd talk to jay and tell him that i hoped he was in a better place; that he was happy and fulfilling his mission.

to this day, i talk to people i knew or loved that have died. when i'm lonely, when i'm scared, when i'm sad. i sometimes cry. i sometimes think i can feel them around me. sometimes i'm just sitting there and i'll say one of thier names randomly and snap around, as if someone just said my name, or someone just came into the room. when i dream, i dream that they protect me. when i'm awake, i think they surround me. sometimes i'll hold out my hand and hope that one of them can metephorically take it and walk with me.

maybe that's a silly thought, but i hope it's the truth. i hope that when i pass on, i can stay with my friends and loved ones. not all the time, but visit them every so often while i'm completing my mission - whatever that may be.

i really believe that john edwards can communicate with those on the other side. i think that he has a gift and shares it in a good way. there's another guy that's on tv sometimes tho, and i think he's full of it. i dont believe that he really communicates with the other side at all. he seems so fake to me. maybe it's just the way he acts, i dont know.

but i also think that spirits can inhabit our animals and pets and communicate to us that way. but i also believe there are bad spirits and ghosts that haunt places and want to cause harm or terror to all of us who make them angry. i think some of them just get stuck between worlds. they cant be in our world because they're dead, but they can't let go of what happened to them, so they cant fully cross over. so they're just stuck in limbo trying to make sense of things they need to let go.

i dont know, this is an interesting topic tho. i did a project/report on spirits and ghosts, but that was more on the ones that are made up or legendary... like the children who stay near this one railroad where they were killed and will push cars over the train tracks if the cars stop on them... or the "ghosts" who appear on film in the backgrounds of scenes or something like that. really interesting.