wow, march already. i can't believe it. and to think... in only 2 short months my life, as i know it, will be over. i'll be starting anew... trying to find my place in the world. damn. all that's difficult to think about. people say that you end a life and start a new one at the end of high school too. and sure, i'm different than i was in high school, but i didn't feel this impending void like i do now. maybe that's because by december of my senior year of high school i knew where i was going to go to college and here it is march of my senior year of college and i'm still at a loss. haha. anyway, i'm sure it can't be half as bad as i'm envisioning it to be. it's just that i feel like there's more i COULD do, but i'm just not doing it. like for that ERG thing i got into. they need to have another letter of recommendation. well, i asked someone to write one for me, but i haven't gone back and asked them if they've done it yet. so i guess maybe i should get on top of that and actually do it. arg. i just feel like i did my part in asking them and then it should just be done. i shouldn't have to go back and pester people. if they didn't want to write me a letter of recommendation, they should have said no in the first place, right? that's what i would do if i were a teacher or an employer or mentor or anyone who got asked to do something. if i didn't think i could do it 100%, i would decline.

oh well. in other news, cube just told me that fidget died. it's sad news. fidget was the dwarf hamster that heather bought her senior year to live in gy13. she lived there almost all that year, and then she lived with pud that summer. at the end of the summer i noticed she was very malnourished and cube said that he would adopt her. heather agreed and cube and i took her and fed her and she became quite the happy hamster. that was over a year ago. so fidgie was over 2 years old. probably 3 years old. anyway, she was a happy hamster, and i'll miss her. but i have pictures of her, so that's good. she was a cutie. here's a cute picture of her taken last year:



well, anywho, there's only a week and a half til my spring break! i'm pumped! haha. even tho i'm not going to do much. i'll probably go visit cube, but it wont be too much fun because he'll have to go to class. then i'll just be home for the rest of it. which is fine too. get to play with the pups. haha.

but i should go get my stuff together and go to rehearsal...