i was wandering through diaryland today clicking on banners. one diary popped up with an entry entitled "she's got an itchy credit card" - that is familiar territory. haha. i've been a big spender recently. i think it's too much watching those "fabulous life" tv shows. that and ebay. haha. i've finally gotten into ebay and it's a bad, bad thing. i found out that people actually sell stuff i would want. haha. and here i thought it was all useless to me. i mean sure, other people find what they want all the time on ebay. i just never thought i'd be one of them. anyway, i've been trying to make my own dreams come true lately by treating myself to things that perhaps i dont REALLY need, but that i've wanted for a long time. however it is becomming increasingly more evident that i am, in fact, a material girl... this could be a problem. cube, start making big bucks to support my addiction as well as yours (he buys tons of car stuff on ebay).

in other news, however, katy told me her dad is indeed fine. the only reason he was in the hospital was because the battery died in some mechanism in his heart, so they had to do minor surgery to replace it. thank goodness he's ok though. that was a really weird day because of that dream. made me feel really strange.

and i can't believe it's already thursday. this week has gone by really fast. but at the same time, really slow. haha. i wanted it to go fast in the beginning of the week, but it was dragging on. and now i want it to go a little slower because it sped up too much. i can't keep up. i have a presentation to do friday afternoon and i haven't really put it all together yet. thankgoodness i do know what i'm going to say though. and then i have a paper due monday. blah. and then the play goes up NEXT FRIDAY!!!! OMG!!! i am so worried about it. i know it will turn out okay, but i'm just freaking out about it because everything feels so crunched.

oh well. i should stop stressing about it i guess. there's nothing i can do to stop time from continuing on. although that really would be something. i'd love to actually rewind time and push my parents a little further to let me follow my dreams more. it's not that they stiffled me, it's just that i think i could have really been getting into better job opportunities now had i been out and about in the theater world more back then. all i did was local community stuff and school stuff. oh well though, the past is done and over with. i must only think about the future! and it will be a good future too.