well, this theater senior project sure is taking up all my time. i mean, that's good... cause this way i'm busy and i get to hang out with the theater crew lots. but at the same time, i have sacrifice hanging out with friends at night. or really doing anything at night. and sometimes that means sacrificing food! which is SO not cool. its unhealthy to skip meals. and theater people or non-theater people should not be discouraged from eating just because you need to do something. eating should always be worked in. always.

oh well, anyway, this art class i'm taking is lots of fun too. well, sorta. it's kinda awkward too. i like having fun and drawing... but to know the nude model... i dunno, that's just weird. and then to have to interact with her around campus. damn. thank goodness i'm not like good friends with her or anything. cause if that was the case, i dunno what i'd do. lol. i'd feel like i was doing her injustice by trying to draw her. haha.

in other news... i've been kinda down lately. i think this whole beginning to the semester has just been shitty. i mean... not only did i have to leave my beloved kayleb, but i also had to come straight back to tons of rehearsals with no down time, cube has a schedule this semester that makes it near impossible to get time to talk to him, my days are long and filled with angst about whether or not i get to eat my next meal due to scheduling... i'm just a mess. thank god this play ends in three weeks. i couldn't take more than that. i'd go nuts. cause then at least i'm around to hang out with people, or to catch cube at odd times when he's around... or to eat dinner... or even to take a nap. man how i miss nap time.

i also ran into davis the other day in the snar. he was talking to me about my break and stuff and he's always so weird when we're out in public. i guess because he knows that we have kind of like a secret relationship behind closed doors. i mean, it's not dirty or anything... it's just that he knows a lot of things about my life... and i guess it's against his ethics to acknowledge most of that outside of our meeting place. anyway, it's always funny talking to him in public. he looks at me strangely and asks very vague questions. i try not to ask him any at all because i usually dont want to prolong his discomfort... since that's usually how it feels to me. anyway, i probably should really set up an appointment to meet with him tomorrow after greenroom... i just dont usually think about stuff like that. especially since with all this other crap i'm doing, i dont have the free time to sit down and call the office during their hours. friday is really the only day i'm free at a normal time when i can still accomplish things before i need to be anywhere else.