well, it's a new week. fun times. work is... well... it's work. thank goodness for getting paid more than i got paid at the mail room at school. except i have to do more work than i had to do at the mail room at school. haha. i miss everyone from there too. it's so sad to not be there anymore. the "bosses" there were so cool, i loved going to work everyday. and this job isn't BAD... it's just not as fun. but eh. whatever. it's a job, right? at least i'm getting my foot in the door to start at somewhere better. woohoo.

cubee turned 21 on friday. friday the 13th, ha. he liked all his presents, which was good. i always get so worried that he wont like something and that never happens. so i shouldn't worry anymore. every time i get him something i think about that... and then i remember that i shouldn't be worried... and i always am anyway... and then he always likes everything anyway. haha. oh well. can't change old habits i guess. but i think he had a pretty good birthday. i gave him some sake. but i dont think he cracked it open yet. probably will the day he goes back to school. i'll get a drunken phone call, haha.

that's another thing. i'm really feeling the withdrawl right now. especially since i started my job i think. i mean, i know now that i am definitely not going back to college. i guess this whole time while i was just sitting around like any other summer, i was kind of dreaming like maybe i could go back to school in the fall just like everyone else. unfortunately, now that i'm working 5 days a week i realize that i can't possibly go back to college and i guess that's a little scary. to finally realize that my time has ended. damn. i wish i could do it all again. haha. not to mention the fact that i'm jealous of cubee since he has another year before he gets out. but at least i'll be able to go visit him on some weekends so i'll be able to kinda live through him in that way. oh well.